Colder Than Ice (Bo and Nora Series, OLTL)

[BoandNora-SexyLove4Ever]

I'm trying to fix some of the wrongs created by JFP so this is the start of that. lol



Episode One
Painful Goodbyes

It was a day she never thought would come...a day that was unavoidable now. She stood at the top of the stairs with a bag draped around her shoulder. It was strange to think that there was so much she didn't need now. Tears still burned her eyes but she couldn't stay. He had crossed a line she couldn't stop thinking about. She brought him home from the hospital today. She sat through endless speeches about how lucky they were. She didn't feel lucky now. He was sitting in his chair with the blanket covering him and she ached. Every part of her ached. She loved this man and she always would...but she wouldn't settle for being his second choice. So much had happened to lead them to this point...so much bad. She needed to leave before she hurt herself on the broken pieces.

"Do you really have to leave," he asked her? She was standing in front of him but she was looking right through him. It hurt too much to allow herself the pain of getting lost in his eyes.

"You know that I have to. Do you think this easy for me Bo? It's not easy."

"And yet you are still doing it..."

"I'm doing what I have to do...just like you did..."

"So this is punishment for..."

"I'm not punishing you for anything...you did what you thought was right, despite my pleas for you to come home and be my husband. You were perfectly willing to leave me a widow...now I'm leaving you because I don't want to be anything but the person you would choose over every other choice. I'm sorry if that hurts you but...nothing could possibly hurt as much as you hurt me when you were trying to join your dead son."

"Please don't walk out that door...it was never as bad as you thought it was..."

"Sure it was Bo...you didn't come back for me...not even when I told you I was having your baby...a non existent baby by the way...I would have done anything to save your life but it wasn't enough. I wasn't enough. And when you were brought into that hospital half dead, I made a bargain...I promised myself that if you lived, I would make the choice I should have made when you left...I'm not leaving because I don't love you...I'm leaving because I can't stand to watch you destroy yourself and me because of some misguided belief that you could have prevented your son's death...d@mn it Bo...you are not God...and I'm sorry that you couldn't see that what would really help you was love...because I do love you...I will always love you. I just hope you learn to love yourself again before it's too late. Goodbye cowboy."

She stopped momentarily to lean down over the chair and kiss him one more time...the softness of his lips pressed against hers made her momentarily afraid of not being able to follow through...but she did...she was weak in the knees but she forced herself to stand tall and walk away...He had made his choice when he left her to go out in a storm that nearly took his life...when he left her to join his dead son...and now she was making her choice...she couldn't be married to a man who would rather be with his dead son then be with her...It hurt to leave but it hurt even more to stay. She didn't regret the choices she made to try and save him but she was thankful she hadn't made things worse by trying to give him a baby...to think she had almost betrayed him that way made her even sadder then she already was...

"I loved you enough not to try to give you a baby by betraying you...why couldn't you have loved me enough to come home for me."

She leaned her head against the door frame and felt his presence...tears fell from her face as she listened to the silent cries coming from the inside...the worst kind of pain was walking away from someone you still loved...walking away for you.

[bn14ever]

awesome start. i like how you have made this from nora view point with how she felt when bo made the decision to get on the boat. he did indeed return because he thought he was having a baby. i know he was in pain at the time over the loss of drew, but he forgot about nora at this time as well. looking foward to the next chapter.

[fabmsm]

Can't wait to see where this goes.

[BoandNora-SexyLove4Ever]

Episode Two
Silence

She used to love those rare moments of complete stillness... except now they weren't so rare...now the silence simply made the thoughts in her head more vocal. She thought she was prepared for this...she had taken weeks to think it through...but sometimes even plans leave you numb.

She stared at the ceiling as she lay flat on her back on the bed in the hotel room...this too was just temporary. Everything in her life seemed to be temporary. She reached for the phone in the dead of night...she could have let it ring but what would be the point...she already knew who it was.

"What," she spoke brokenly into the phone, never finishing her sentence?

"I just think maybe...we should talk," he said.

"Bo, do you have any idea what time it is...I'm all talked out."

She didn't give him a chance to respond, she clicked the phone onto it's receiver and turned onto her side. She wished she could just will sleep to come but she knew she would only dream of him...She had never hated the silence so much in her life. The silence made her remember the moment when her husband turned into a stranger.

"You were never planning on coming home were you," she cried into the pillow? "Were you really that selfish that you had to hurt me just because you were hurting too? I wanted to help you Bo...but all you wanted was a way out...why couldn't you have just been a man and admitted that you didn't want to be married to me anymore. It would have hurt so much less than this."

Silence was a woman's loudest cry...and it was what rocked her to sleep in the lonely hotel room when she would reach for him...nobody would hear her pain behind these closed doors...only the silence...and silence wouldn't talk.

[bn14ever]

this is good, yet sad. nora is in a dark place right now and it looks like bo just does not get it. i hope the light will re-enter their relationship. great update. please continue soon!

[Caroline]

Soooo sad! But so good!