Never Want To Choose (Days: Brandon/Sami/Lucas)

[chrisevefan]

The back chapters are up on the old board, but here is the latest chapter 13 for all to enjoy

CHAPTER THIRTEEN

“Brandon, what the hell do you think you’re doing,” Sami questioned again unable to believe what was happening right before her very eyes.

“I told you once that I wasn’t about to lose what we have with one another and this is no exception Samantha. We belong together and deep down you know it as much as I do,” Brandon continued tossing the torn paper fragments onto the ground before taking a bold step towards her, “You still love me as much as I love you.”<br>
“Now wait just one d**n minute,” Lucas stepped in between them unable to believe what he was hearing. Glaring up at Brandon, Lucas pushed his hand out into the center of Brandon’s chest to stop him, “I don’t know what has gotten into you, but this is my wedding day and I’m not about to let you ruin it with this little fit of yours. You have no business being at our wedding and…”

“Back off Lucas,” Brandon shoved him aside, his eyes never straying from Sami as she was unusually silent.

“The hell I will,” Lucas rushed over towards Brandon knocking into his side in a fury. The two men began to wrestle on the ground as Sami watched in horror realizing what a mess she’d made of things. Flailing limbs and punches continued to roar through the small chapel while Sami stood frozen at the sight of the two men she loved tearing one another apart. Finally she cried out in horror.

“Stop it! Both of you please…” she begged of them taking a step forward, “Lucas don’t. Brandon please…”

“We can’t just let them tear each other apart,” Belle added from her place beside Phillip. He nodded in response.

“You’re right on that,” Phillip marched forward pulling his brother off of Brandon while the two men were in the midst of an all out war. “Lucas let go!”<br>
“I’m not going to let him ruin my wedding day!” Lucas shouted with a rage.

“She loves me Lucas,” Brandon threw back at him, “I’m sorry that it had to come to this, but Samantha is my wife and she can’t marry you.”<br>
“Oh she’ll marry me and then oh am I going to love putting you in your place,” Lucas seethed in response while Phillip did his best to restrain him.

“The hell she will,” Brandon stepped towards Lucas again only to have Sami reach out to stop him.

“Brandon don’t do this. Please, don’t hurt him,” she begged of him with tears in her eyes.

“Then tell him the truth Samantha. Tell him that you can’t marry him,” Brandon pleaded with her desperately, “You know how I feel about you and I know that you still love me. You and I were meant to be together and after everything that’s happened, how can you stand here and even think about marrying him?”<br>
“Because I’m the only man she’s been able to count on. I’ve never left her behind because it was convenient. She loves me and we belong together Brandon. She belongs with me, not you Brand-O and the sooner you get that through your head, the better off you’ll be,” Lucas shouted in response trying to wiggle his way out of Phillip’s hold on him, “She’s going to be my wife.”<br>
“No, she’s not. Samantha and I are still married and that isn’t going to be changing anytime soon,” Brandon tossed out sharply unable to contain the anger that mounted inside of him at having walked in on the ceremony. Turning his attention to Sami, his dark eyes pleaded with her, “Samantha tell him. Tell him about us…tell him that you love me…”

“I…I…” she stammered looking between the two men while guilt ate away at her. She opened her mouth to speak before she found herself at a loss. Feeling all eyes upon her, she knew that this was that pivotal moment that would forever change her life. Suddenly nothing felt right and she had become a stranger in her own life. She had two amazing men both ready to love her and be with her and all she could think about was how she’d betrayed them both.

“Samantha,” Brandon reached out for her arm only to watch her pull away from him.

“I’m sorry Brandon, but I can’t do this right now,” she offered up choking on her tears before she turned her attention to Lucas. She bit down on her lower lip before she finally faced him. She could see the confusion and pain behind his eyes when she remained frozen in her spot, refusing to take a step towards him, “Lucas…I…I…I just have to get out of here,” was all she could get out as she bunched up her wedding gown and ran out of the chapel unable to free herself fast enough from the disaster that she’d created in her life.

“Sami wait,” Lucas called out after her running in the direction she’d taken off in. Brandon followed closely behind him, hoping to reach out to her as well, but as both men stood outside the small chapel she was nowhere to be found.

“Look what you’ve done,” Lucas glared at Brandon ready to unleash the full extent of his rage, but before he let his emotions get the best of him, he turned in the direction he’d hoped Sami had taken off in and prayed that he’d find her.

“Brandon,” Belle spoke out to the man she’d called after Sami’s earlier confession. While she hadn’t wanted to ruin her sister’s life, there was something about the talk that she and Sami had with one another that lead her to believe that things were far from over with Brandon and Sami. Now as she thought of how things fell apart there back in the chapel, guilt ate away at her and she tried to find some way to make things better.

“I have to find her,” was all that Brandon answered her with before he too chased off after her elusive sister.

“This wasn’t what I was expecting,” Phillip added taking in the situation as Belle couldn’t help but feel a panic coming on.

“Oh Phil, this is all my fault. I never should’ve called him,” Belle confessed realizing that she may have been the key to ruining her sister’s life forever.

[chrisevefan]

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The chill of the morning that surrounded Sami was nothing compared to the fear that had frozen her heart. When she’d left the chapel, she’d started running unable to clear her mind fast enough. She’d thought about turning back, but that wasn’t the answer either. She needed space. She needed clarity and most of all she needed to find the strength inside of her to face up to what could quite possibly be the worst of the situations she’d found herself in.

Okay, so sure she was Samantha Brady--schemer extraordinaire, but nothing had prepared her for this latest disaster in her life. Sure, most of the time the problems she faced were of her own making and this time it was no different, but this time, well there were the lives of two very special men involved. Men who loved her. Men who both wanted to be with her and share forever with her. That was something she’d never had to face before and now that she was in that position she realized she wished she hadn’t ever had to deal with such a fate.

On one end of the spectrum, she’d had a life with Lucas that was beyond wonderful. Sure, they’d had their history of hurting one another far deeper than anyone else had done in their lives, but in the same breath they knew one another like no one else had--like no one ever would. Lucas knew of all her faults--all her weaknesses and he’d loved her in spite of that. He’d seen her at her worst--helped her through the lowest of lows in her life and most of all he’d fathered her son--the son that meant the world to her. With the three of them together at long last there was a chance for a family--a chance for real happiness in her life and she knew that Lucas would be everything she’d ever needed and more. He could be the husband she’d spent her youth dreaming about. Yet, she’d done the ultimate betrayal in falling into Brandon’s arms.

“Brandon,” she mouthed to herself thinking about the man whose intensity and passion caused her to risk everything. Time after time she’d prayed that he’d come back to her--that somehow he’d find his way into her life again loving her as he’d promised. They had so much fire between them--a true passion for one another that had been denied far too long. Once they’d finally come together it had been explosive and fiery and full of something she’d always craved in her life. They could’ve had so much more if Nicole hadn’t gotten in the way and spoiled things. Of course she hadn’t helped the situation in her doing what she deemed necessary to hold onto him, but in the end she’d lost him. She’d lost what hope she’d held onto about their happily ever after, but now…now he was back and he loved her. He really, truly loved her and all of those memories that she’d locked away deep, down inside her heart were returning to her.

Brandon was her husband--the man that she’d wanted to spend forever with once upon a time. When he’d ripped those papers up, it took everything inside of her not to break down and run right into his arms. She’d dreamt endlessly about him taking a stand for their relationship--for the love that they’d had with one another and unlike the last time they were together, he did exactly what she’d dreamt about. He wasn’t giving up on her. He refused to walk away even knowing what she was capable of. As she thought about the emotions they’d shared with one another back at that hotel when they were making love earlier, she realized that she couldn’t let go of Brandon either. She loved him. She loved Lucas. She loved both of them.

“What am I going to do,” she asked herself taking a seat on an empty bench before her as her tears consumed her. Burying her head in her hands, she lost herself to emotion fearing that the right answer would never come to her when the faint sound of footsteps sounded from the distance. With a gasp she looked up to find Kimberly standing before her, emerging from the pathway.

“What in the world is going on,” Kimberly questioned in confusion seeing the obvious turmoil behind Sami’s tear stained features, “Sami, what happened?”<br>
“I ruined everything,” Sami offered up unable to look at the woman before her. She continued to cry feeling so lost inside herself that Kimberly’s presence continued to go almost unnoticed.

“Sami why are you out here in your wedding dress?” Kimberly questioned feeling a sudden fear tug at her insides, “Were you on your way to marry Lucas?”<br>
“It didn’t happen,” Sami informed her bluntly, unable to contain the venom in her tone. She looked up to the woman that Brandon had been with before his return to Salem and her anger flared, “And for your information you may as well that the reason I didn’t was because Brandon stopped the wedding.”<br>
“What,” Kimberly’s jaw dropped in surprise giving Sami that moment of satisfaction that she’d so been hoping for in wanting to hurt someone else for the way that she’d felt.

“That’s right,” Sami let out a harsh laugh unable to contain herself, “He showed up at my wedding and stopped it because he still loves me. He wants to be married to me and we’re still husband and wife.”<br>
“I see,” Kimberly grew quiet upon her words. A shadow pressed over her features before her dark eyes returned to Sami’s once again, “So I take it you and Brandon are planning on being together then?”<br>
“I’ll bet you’d like me to say no, but I’m not going to do that,” Sami replied sharply, “because it would only be a lie and I’m not about to do that to you. There’s no point in you wasting your time chasing Brandon around when he loves me.”<br>
“Oh this is so like you,” Kimberly rolled her eyes in response clenching her fists at her sides, “I heard what a witch you are and I can see that everyone was right. You’re just one of those women who can’t be happy with what you have, can you? First you lead Lucas along making him believe you could actually be woman enough to give him a happily ever after and now you’re trying to reel Brandon back in.”<br>
“He interrupted my wedding, not the other way around, which sure as hell says a lot about what he thinks of what you have,” Sami gave her an unimpressed once over, “Clearly you weren’t at all what he needed considering he came running back to me. All your little Miss Goody-Two-Shoes act is wearing thin. Even Lucas knew your number when you came into town. You’re about as fake as they come.”<br>
“And you’re about as desperate for attention as they come Sami, but before you decide to rethink your whole situation with Lucas, I think it’s time for us to have a little girl talk to broaden your perspective,” Kim demanded with narrowed eyes.

“Go to hell,” Sami shot back at her only to feel Kim’s ironclad grip on her arm.

“Oh I’ll show you hell,” Kim vowed forcing Sami to face her once again, “because by the time I’m through with you, you’re going to wish you just stayed at that church and went through with marrying Lucas.”<br>
......to be continued

[soapaddict]

Hi chrisevefan1!


First of all I'm glad to see you're still writing this!! ;D


I went back to the old board to read #12 but it's become a pop up h@#@!!!!


Is there any way you could post a link to another site where I could read this chapter?


If not please let me know & I'll venture back into h#@#!

[chrisevefan]

You can read it up at p196.ezboard.com/fdesirefanficfrm7.showMessage?topicID=1.topic and that should have all the back chapters I think. Twelve should be the last of the bunch and for the next 20 some days that should be popup free which will be enough time to get you caught up on the last chapter--at least I hope I'll be switching some of my boards too since I see how popup nuts ezboard can be Hope that helps

[1Nikki]

I liked everything about this chapter except its ending! Kimberly was a very unpleasant surprise. I've been really drawn into this fic! Please don't keep us hanging too long!

[soapaddict]

Thanks for the link!


As usual you wrote a fabulous chapter - both 12 & 13!! ;D


Your story is so much better than the ones on the show!!!


That was some wedding but Sami's always are!!!!


Please hurry & continue!

[MistiTiffani]

This doesn't look good for Lucas but I can't wait to read what happens next! I can't stand Kimberly!

[autumnstar]

Poor Lucas!! This is really going too hurt!! Great chapter!!

[keagan]

Dude htischapter w as so good

[kudzukid]

I love it! Great job!