Post by BoandNora-SexyLove4Ever on Dec 4, 2014 19:32:07 GMT -5
Chapter Eight
She pulled her legs up to her chest as she buried her head against the steering wheel. She didn't seem to know how to make the tears stop.
"You're going to wish you hadn't done that B!tch...You will know pain like never before."
"Go to hell," she raged, as she spit in his face.
He hit her...he hit her hard...She never even flinched as she bit back tears.
"Only a coward hits a woman...an even bigger coward does it with a mask over his face."
"You better watch it or that mouth of yours will get you in trouble."
"What's the matter, did I hit a nerve? Deal with it. I'm not going to make this easy for you."
"You're the one who wanted to take your daughter's place...now who's the coward."
"At least I don't hide behind a mask...I don't take my disgusting need to be in power out on people who aren't as strong as I am...People like you are the reason the death penalty was created...you deserve to be slaughtered for even thinking you have the right to breathe the same air as good, decent people."
"There is nothing decent about YOU...and you are going to learn to show some respect..."
"Make me."
"Still the fighter huh," he said, as he caressed a gloved hand over her face? "I'd be careful sweetheart...sooner or later, someone will knock that fight out of you."
"And you think it will be you?"
"If I have to...stranger things have happened."
"Don't go making promises you can't keep...I know how to make you hurt."
"Not if I hurt you first."
Tears streamed from her face as she heard the knocking on the car door. She was rocking back and forth as the cold terror rendered her immobile.
"No...No don't...don't touch me...please...please don't touch me."
She was back in that place again...the place where she could feel the cold, hard floor beneath her as he tossed her to the ground. She was looking up at him with dark, intense eyes...pleading for him to spare her life...He had a mask on but she knew even then that he was someone she had once known...someone with eyes so empty and hard that they sent terror coursing through her veins.
"Don't worry sweetie...I'm not going to kill you...although maybe you should use that mouth of yours to convince me why I shouldn't."
"I will never beg you for anything...you can take everything away from me but you will never break me...you will never take my dignity."
"We'll see about that. Not that you have much to begin with."
"You disgusting piece of garbage."
"Now Now...you know better then to talk like that...play nice now darling."
"I am NOT your darling...I am not your ANYTHING."
"Fine...then you can be my w!ore..."
"Nora...Nora, sweetheart, it's okay..."
She felt the hand on her shoulder and she jerked away in defense..."Please don't hurt me...please."
"Sweetie it's me...It's Viki...You're safe now...You're safe."
"Viki," she asked, as tears cascaded down her face. "Viki, is it really you?"
"It's me...Sweetie, take my hand...Can you do that? Can you give me your hand?"
She hesitated briefly as the pain from the memory filled her shattered heart with impossibilities... but eventually she found the strength to take her best friend's hand and they walked to her car. When they were driving away and Nora was seated securely in the passenger seat, Viki asked her the tough questions.
"You were thinking about your rape weren't you?"
"Tell me it gets better Viki...tell me that the pain goes away..."
"I wish I could...I can only tell you that you learn to survive...you did a very brave thing Nora...you saved your daughters life...you took the attack that had been meant for her...you made her run to save herself...you are a wonderful mother."
"It didn't matter Viki...he still found her...except he didn't rape her this time...this time he killed her...and he made me choose...he made me choose which child to save...he's a monster Viki...every bad thing he put my kids through was done for the sole purpose of destroying me...and he succeeded...one of my children is dead and the other..."
"He did not succeed Nora...he didn't break you..."
"I am not the same woman I was when I left Viki...I still have to struggle every day to get up and keep breathing...I still have those moments when I really want to swallow that bottle of pills and never wake up...he didn't break me but he sure as hell sent me into a living nightmare...this isn't living Viki...and I'm tired of hurting..."
"I know you are...and nobody understands the pain of losing a child more then I do...but you can't give in to those demons...if you do...Nora, you'd be letting him win."
"So how do I do this...how do I live every day without my children...I can't even accept Rachel's death...I still wake up every morning and call her...it always goes to voice mail and one day I know that Hank will get tired of placating me and shut off her phone...what am I going to do then...what am I going to do when I can no longer pretend that my little girl is just on a vacation...and what about my son...am I ever going to see him again...the last memory I have is when he was a little baby...he doesn't even know me Viki...who knows what lies that bastard is spreading...How is it fair that he gets to spend every day of his life with MY son...How is it fair that Matthew grows up without his mom...grows up thinking that I didn't want him...that I abandoned him..."
She pulled the car into her driveway and stopped the car...She cupped Nora's face in her hands as she looked at her. "This isn't fair Nora. None of this is fair. It is bad enough when your child dies like my Megan did...but when they are murdered like Rachel...when they suffer...I understand how you feel okay...but you haven't lost Matthew yet...please don't give up on him...please..."
She reached into her pocket and pulled out a photo..."Now you'll have a new picture of him to fill your mind...focus on that...Focus on bringing Sam Rappaport to his knees..."
"Thank you Viki...Thank you for being the best friend I ever had...."
"You don't have to thank me for that...you know that I would do anything for you...I love you."
"I love you too. "
Viki got out of the car and went to open Nora's door. Her best friend was in more misery then she had ever seen her in before. She wasn't taking any chances. She would stay with her tonight. She wasn't giving her an option.
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Rex walked into the diner and sat across from his friend and mentor, who looked about ready to explode.
"What is it...no offense but you look like hell."
"I need you to do a job for me...and the timing is critical."
"Sounds pretty serious."
"It is...I need to find out where Sam Rappaport is hiding."
"Isn't that the guy that..."
"Please don't go there Rex...You and everybody else knows what happened. I don't need a reminder."
"Okay...Then why are you so determined to find him."
"Because he stole Nora's son..."
"Stole?"
"Rex, she lost custody of her kid...Sam cheated to get him...he used things that never should have been used...things that weren't true...and Nora, she's..."
"Wait...you've seen her...and how is it...after all these years..."
"How is what?"
"Don't play dumb with me Bo...It doesn't suit you..."
"Look, my personal life...or lack thereof... is not up for discussion...I'm trying to find her son..."
"Because you still have a thing for her..."
"Rex..."
"Bo, you know that I love you but...we both know that you never got over her...why are you so afraid of admitting that?"
"Maybe because her betrayal just about broke me...I'm not doing this for any reason other than the fact that she didn't deserve to lose her kid..."
"Then you are living in denial-Ville. You can't chase away love... even if you know it's bad for you...though I'm not entirely convinced that it is."
"Are you going to do this for me or not?"
"I'll do it...but sooner or later, you two are going to have to deal with your past...This town is too small for you to keep avoiding each other. It's going to boil over."
Rex walked away and Bo stared into his empty glass of Beer...and ordered another. One thing that seeing Nora again had done for him was bring up all those old embers he wanted to forget...embers that even now still burned in his mind...He couldn't forget her even if he tried.
